I hate the feeling of thinkin of the person i dun wished to think of! please .. someone please help me.My heart ach . yet i cant cry out my sadness. Thats not enough! why? hias. i realised that all along, i place' him' at the most bottom of my heart. trying to let other or maybe show that i had forgotton him as a 'important ' person to me? but i finally understand, there will be one day, i will definately brust out to tears. ytd, after leaving honnson house, i kept thinkin of wad they had told me. memories too.. we used to be so sweet. now. we are strangers. why ?! hias. regret FOR WAD!! suehli!! WAKE UP!! hias.

Looking thru friendster was the most hurtful thing i had done today. i just dun understand why! WHY ?! why cant my hand be more obedient? why must i browsed'his' old profile. which i created for him when we were sec3. how long ago ? hmm.. cant remember. dun wan to remember too. everything seems so sweet yet hurtful. the pictures of mi and the tesimonial i gave him. all are memories!

*The content make mi cried like mad!*

BUt everything is gone. I WAN TO GET HIM OUT OF MY MIND AND HEART!! but how? ANY ONE PLS HELP?! i am being so contridicting! I wan to forget him bUT why i had to browse him profile right?! I HATE THIS TOO! my hand and mind does not agress to work together.

i am strolling... wandering...