i getting to get irritated by my parents ! hate them? i dunno lah.. wadeva, i promised to myself that i am not going to tell them about anymore things anymore. its all no used. when will they give me my freedom? WHEN ? WTH loh. i think i am go0d liar to them . i get this charateristic since young. u know why? whenever i wan to go out. jus with friends. they will always say NO! without failed. i am turning 17 soon. and they still treat me as a baby. i hate that. no even abit of freedom?? i cant even drink jolly shandy to them . that is how OBID their mind set are. i am getting even more irritated ! ARH! today when i was workin in ballroom. i alreadi feel damn Fcuk up by doing 2 tables by myself.This is the first day i work night and i have to do by myself. i alreadi so stressed up ! why they keep calling me and disturb me.! make the hell out of it! make me feel more stressed up and cried at a corner! i wanted to have a go0d relationahip with them.its they dun give in. not me. i tried to tell them the true that i wanted to go chalet. but. i think , whats make me lie to them is all cause by themself! i dun care!
from now onwards. i am NOT GOING TO TELL THEM EVERY SINGLE THINGS! dun blame me for doing that. i tried my best to make the love between parent and children deeper. how hard i tried, u all forces me to the way u want. but, indeed, it force me to feel lacking of love in this relationship i have. i hate that too... but , u all force me to do th way i shouldnt have to.

i feel that there isnt any one i can turn to when i got problems to share. seriously i wanted to have a mother who care. who love who can go shopping with me. who can share interest with me. or at least understand what her daughter wans and AT LEAST! GIVE IN! but no . i dun see any bonds we share. none. u took advantage for the care i gave u . the more i care, the more u want from me. the more u force me to do things i doesnt want to . i simply hate that! i love the amount of conversation sarina and her mum shares. i love the way steph and her mum shop together and the way she cares for steph. i love the independent that eve have. the freedom. i love the way koon mum can understand her. i love the freedom ade mum gave to her. i love i love. i hope one of them to be my mum . i wish and wish . and in fact thats only FAT HOPE! my brother is so blessed! so blessed.... living in a blissful envirnment.

- i hate. i wish. i hope ..

hias.. As for fren, i am trying to understand them . .maybe different people have differentway of thinking . and i am trying to understand.but i how also dun understand my parents. they simply are stranger to me.

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