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Oh hello. I am Serene and I am 20 Soon. Chocolates and MTea and money are my favorite things.




Sarina
Adeline Phyllis'K Evelyn Steph

Monday, December 04, 2006

everthing seems to get started. my illness. my sickness. i hate being what i am now. my running nose make me mad. my gastric make me suffer. i simply hate all this. how i hope i can be as healthy as ever. =/
it hurts to see u so tired. it hurts to see u torturing urself. i know u want to grab as much time as possible to spent on me. u scacrifies ur time , ur wealth and ur health to protect me and showering me with ur love. and yet, i cant do anything to do the same for u .i dun wish to admit that u love me more den i love u . but indeed, it is. After realising that, i am starting to hate myself. hate myself for not knowing ur hard work . hate myself for not having the freedom to express my love for u. i simply hate it when i see u sleeping so soundly beside me.It will only makes me feel more gulity afterall. u dont understand how much i hate myself. u dont understand and u wont understand.
uses harsh words on u wasnt what actually i meant. it wasnt what i want either. Does "absence make a heart grow fonder"make u think that i am pushing u away from me? - u misunderstood me.=(
i know u are scare that u may not be able to appeal successfully. by that time, u maybe in army alr. thanks anyway, for the afford u hav been puting in this relationship. .afterll, i still want to say, i love u still.


p.s. : How i hope u were here to see what i wrote. if only...