Adeline Phyllis'K Evelyn Steph
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Here goes my Emo-ness again:
Sweet Memories are meant to be kept. hmm... i wonder who's that person who came put with this phrase. Or perhaps , humans tend to ask for more? Why can't memories be erased? Why cant it be jus a past tense and forget it? its so heart pain and how i wish i'm able to have that moment again?
Everyone in the earth done wrong, do wrong and are doing wrong.. second chance is being given.. i wonder whether there are a third chance? Why am i so greedy? Sometimes i think back, he did alot of things for me. Yet, i take it for granted. Hmm.. But , what for i'm here emo-ing about him? haha. everythings had gone and somethings had been done. it's a fact that i cant get back the most important thing in my life.. and even if he wants me back? do i still have the courage to face him? i cant afford myself to get hurt of touch anymore. i feel damn disgusted by all the things. That scar is there. it hurts and stop me from getting him back. it a wrong step that causes me in becoming so miserable.
Ya. i'm alright i'm okay! haha. is that the fact? i wondered. i don't even know it myself. after the most regretted things happened, so what if i got into the next two r/s ? haha. its sound like i'm okay? NO... i don't think so... they want to hold my hand, i swang it away. why?! because i feel so disgusted to have any intimacy. when they want to get close to me, i'll panic. haha. why?! feel that i'm unable to react. when they want to come close to my face, i turn them down, why?! haha. the disgusted feelings came back. basically, i'm becoming a weirdo.
In conclusion, nothing ever happened between me and the next two. we are so called no r/s status. it's been a year! when the *** can a forget about that scenario? it's seriously tiring... i'm afraid that i can no longer stay firm...
i want to be back to the bubbly sueh li... can i? lord, please giv me the strength to stay firm... i wan , i wish and i hope.
momories and meant to be kept.. please... make it true...
Sweet Memories are meant to be kept. hmm... i wonder who's that person who came put with this phrase. Or perhaps , humans tend to ask for more? Why can't memories be erased? Why cant it be jus a past tense and forget it? its so heart pain and how i wish i'm able to have that moment again?
Everyone in the earth done wrong, do wrong and are doing wrong.. second chance is being given.. i wonder whether there are a third chance? Why am i so greedy? Sometimes i think back, he did alot of things for me. Yet, i take it for granted. Hmm.. But , what for i'm here emo-ing about him? haha. everythings had gone and somethings had been done. it's a fact that i cant get back the most important thing in my life.. and even if he wants me back? do i still have the courage to face him? i cant afford myself to get hurt of touch anymore. i feel damn disgusted by all the things. That scar is there. it hurts and stop me from getting him back. it a wrong step that causes me in becoming so miserable.
Ya. i'm alright i'm okay! haha. is that the fact? i wondered. i don't even know it myself. after the most regretted things happened, so what if i got into the next two r/s ? haha. its sound like i'm okay? NO... i don't think so... they want to hold my hand, i swang it away. why?! because i feel so disgusted to have any intimacy. when they want to get close to me, i'll panic. haha. why?! feel that i'm unable to react. when they want to come close to my face, i turn them down, why?! haha. the disgusted feelings came back. basically, i'm becoming a weirdo.
In conclusion, nothing ever happened between me and the next two. we are so called no r/s status. it's been a year! when the *** can a forget about that scenario? it's seriously tiring... i'm afraid that i can no longer stay firm...
i want to be back to the bubbly sueh li... can i? lord, please giv me the strength to stay firm... i wan , i wish and i hope.
momories and meant to be kept.. please... make it true...