Adeline Phyllis'K Evelyn Steph
Monday, May 18, 2009
Relationship
What a day, quarrel seems to get more frequent and I ‘like’ this feeling damn freaking much! It’s getting on my nerves and feel like breaking down! Why whenever I want to treat you well, you will take advantage and bring back the past. Making everything worse. When I didn’t treat you well, you say that I don’t care about you, when i do, you demand more. So, a good relationship would mean that I must text you and call you once I off work finish my training and does it go to the extend where i need to text you every 5 mins?
Feelings come and go, sometimes I feel like taking out my phone and sometimes I don’t. I don’t 24/7 carries my phone with me. I don’t freaking stick to my cells. But to you, i dont care you means i dont care?
You say i dont know when you tired and all, i dont care, i dont spare a thought for you. What a good say!
You said you don’t like to reckon on the past. So why have you got to keep comparing me now with the past?exciting huh? I don’t understand you at all; you want me to change for you. Now I change, and you compare me with the past. So I don’t have my freedom at all. All these little things can set a fire, a big quarrel and even making me sick and tired of it. Yes, you don’t want to quarrel. But have you realized; what you said does affect this relationship? I just freaking don’t like you to spoil my mood.
I called you and sound sweet and loving; you replied not being loved but demand more from what I give. Then, I tell you, what you said makes feel that I won’t change anymore. I had enough. It’s mentally torturing.
work.
Given a new environment, unfamiliar workload and facing diverse community are seriously tiring. Especially when colleagues are having an age gap with me, it’s hard to communicate and blend into their clique.
I love the job scope with reasonable amount of workload, basically clearing incoming documents from law firms and sometimes doing customer service.
It’s not that I want to nitpick on the flaws but sometimes, people (Especially for that only one person) are so inconsiderate that they criticize and verbal insult without sparing a thought for others. Mild insult is also an insult. Fresh learner needs compassion, patience and time to learn, and not demoralization which worsen the rapport. That person might seem nice sometimes, sharing jokes and conversations, still, black side of that person is still that scary!
Perhaps, I’m just too sensitive towards this issue or the problems might lies with them. Everyday I’m trying to make myself like a clown, laugh when I’m being pass judgment on.
MuayThai
Recently took up MuayThai as my Co-Curriculum Activities, it’s was tough yet enjoyable. End of trainings was always having a sense of satisfaction which motivates me to become a fighter one day. HA!
XY says that I’m having a versatile lifestyle where I’m working as an office girl Mon-Fri morning, MuayThai Future Boxer in the night and weekend would be Fisher-woman. That’s real funny. J
‘Fishing will be an addiction once you started it’ -Sean’s Dad philosophy
That’s so true! For the past 2 months, I’ve been going fishing like almost all weekend. I’m influencing people around me to take up this hobby as well.
Graduation day is nearing, less than 24 hour and I will be a TP graduates. Flashback of the things I’ve done throughout the 3 years, having fun, slacking, burning mid-night oil, projects submission all packed in 1 week and many of the food I’m going to miss at Mensa (CHICKEN SALAD). L
Time to juggle between friends, sisters, darling, baby and work, if not I’m going to lose them all J
What a day, quarrel seems to get more frequent and I ‘like’ this feeling damn freaking much! It’s getting on my nerves and feel like breaking down! Why whenever I want to treat you well, you will take advantage and bring back the past. Making everything worse. When I didn’t treat you well, you say that I don’t care about you, when i do, you demand more. So, a good relationship would mean that I must text you and call you once I off work finish my training and does it go to the extend where i need to text you every 5 mins?
Feelings come and go, sometimes I feel like taking out my phone and sometimes I don’t. I don’t 24/7 carries my phone with me. I don’t freaking stick to my cells. But to you, i dont care you means i dont care?
You say i dont know when you tired and all, i dont care, i dont spare a thought for you. What a good say!
You said you don’t like to reckon on the past. So why have you got to keep comparing me now with the past?exciting huh? I don’t understand you at all; you want me to change for you. Now I change, and you compare me with the past. So I don’t have my freedom at all. All these little things can set a fire, a big quarrel and even making me sick and tired of it. Yes, you don’t want to quarrel. But have you realized; what you said does affect this relationship? I just freaking don’t like you to spoil my mood.
I called you and sound sweet and loving; you replied not being loved but demand more from what I give. Then, I tell you, what you said makes feel that I won’t change anymore. I had enough. It’s mentally torturing.
work.
Given a new environment, unfamiliar workload and facing diverse community are seriously tiring. Especially when colleagues are having an age gap with me, it’s hard to communicate and blend into their clique.
I love the job scope with reasonable amount of workload, basically clearing incoming documents from law firms and sometimes doing customer service.
It’s not that I want to nitpick on the flaws but sometimes, people (Especially for that only one person) are so inconsiderate that they criticize and verbal insult without sparing a thought for others. Mild insult is also an insult. Fresh learner needs compassion, patience and time to learn, and not demoralization which worsen the rapport. That person might seem nice sometimes, sharing jokes and conversations, still, black side of that person is still that scary!
Perhaps, I’m just too sensitive towards this issue or the problems might lies with them. Everyday I’m trying to make myself like a clown, laugh when I’m being pass judgment on.
MuayThai
Recently took up MuayThai as my Co-Curriculum Activities, it’s was tough yet enjoyable. End of trainings was always having a sense of satisfaction which motivates me to become a fighter one day. HA!
XY says that I’m having a versatile lifestyle where I’m working as an office girl Mon-Fri morning, MuayThai Future Boxer in the night and weekend would be Fisher-woman. That’s real funny. J
‘Fishing will be an addiction once you started it’ -Sean’s Dad philosophy
That’s so true! For the past 2 months, I’ve been going fishing like almost all weekend. I’m influencing people around me to take up this hobby as well.
Graduation day is nearing, less than 24 hour and I will be a TP graduates. Flashback of the things I’ve done throughout the 3 years, having fun, slacking, burning mid-night oil, projects submission all packed in 1 week and many of the food I’m going to miss at Mensa (CHICKEN SALAD). L
Time to juggle between friends, sisters, darling, baby and work, if not I’m going to lose them all J